okay, yup its been super long since i last blogged.
i have been busy/lazy.
homeworks,gymanstics,myself.
we will be having a performance on the following sat.
so we will have to think of a nice performance to please over 800 people.
and we only get to start our practice at 4 plus,
and it ends ard 6plus to 7 plus.
so by the time i reach home, i would be super beat.
and there is still homeworkafterhomework .


sigh, looking back now, 3 years have passed by so quickly.
And soon 4.
then it would be my N'lvls and then my final MAJOR exam.
O'lvls.
time flies. really.
it is already friday, and it seemed like i just blog my previous post yesterday.
There are many pictures i ought to upload.
But forgive me, its just too tiring.
and SOOOO soooo many.
maybe when i really have nothing to do i would upload them.

My oral exmination is next week.
and i am so freaking scared/nervous.
veryveryscaredandnervous.


what do you do when someone really pisses you off so badly.
or something just happens, or it just never happens .
and it just makes you go sad/crazy/emotional/mad?
if you get what i mean.

i want to get out of my own life, and live someone elses life.
i want to break someone's finger.
i want to pour lemon juice on wounds.
i want to punch the wall so hard, and be numbed from everything.
i want to make all the pain go away, or at least just have them 'externally'.
i just smile.
-justbeingrandom-

i'm tired.





So close - Jon Mclaughlin.

You're in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I'm with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by
Romantic dreams must die
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close

So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
Now you're beside me and look how far we've come
So far we are so close

How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We're so close
To reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
Let's go on dreaming for we know we are
So close
So close
And still so far